And the results are in

Somewhat upsetting as I was hoping to feel better by now. But as the heading says…at least I know I’m not crazy. Certainly it feels like it sometimes.

My T3 level hasn’t come down as expected and my medication has been increased to three a day, rather than two. The endocronologist puts this down to high levels of antithyroid antibodies in my blood, and her assumption that I’m under a lot of stress. Well thats the understatement of the millenium!

She asked me if I was feeling any better and I had to admit ‘not really’ and asked her about the joint and muscular pain especially in my left arm. She replied that yes, this is most likely related and finished with “You have an auto-immune disease.” like that should help me cope with everything. So I spent the rest of the day seconds away from tears, tears of frustration and self pity. I even got caught with a tear in my eye by my assistant but she kindly pretended she didn’t notice.

I’ve decided I need to leave my new job, maybe take a couple of weeks off and then look for some contract work…a low level of responsibility sounds good right now. Will need to chat to the folks in case I run out of cash but right now I feel like I need to prioritise feeling better. Also talking to my old bosses who in general are more sympathetic people (not perfect mind you but at least we all like each other!) and with luck this might be a short term financial solution for when I leave the other job.

Keeping everything croossed for better luck!